I have always wanted to write more about my faith and my feelings. Because if you can’t be yourself and say what you want on your blog, where else can you (provided that what you post isn’t illegal or offensive to other people’s civil liberties – I’d like to say it’s exercising responsible freedom of speech!) be?
I saw a comment on one of my old blogs, talking about how a prayer that I posted about concentration at work helped them (they were looking for a prayer for concentration and apparently my prayer was easily modified for purpose).
I thought I’d share it with y’all because I know that it was something I came across as well and that I modified according to what I needed. I’m hoping that it helps someone who comes across this blog post too! In this world of instants, there are so many distractions. Sometimes it helps to just close one’s eyes and focus and draw into oneself and centre oneself by praying.
I hope this helps!
I draw near You to seek Your help. I have the assurance that You love me so very much. Lord, the Scripture says that You love the prosperity of Your children. You know the importance of being able to concentrate at work. Father, bless me with Your guidance and let me work on my things to do list properly. Lord, I confess that I get distracted easily; I have more interest in less important things instead of what is urgent in my in-tray.
Please forgive me and gird me with You grace (I love the word gird Lord, because it makes me feel like I am going to battle, and oh I do love a battle! See Lord, I am digressing, yet again!) and strength so that I concentrate in my work. Without Your help I cannot achieve any success Lord!
Please help me to overcome all my weaknesses and strengthen my mind. Take full control of my wandering thoughts and give me Your wisdom and knowledge. Let me shine at work, Heavenly Father and let me be a blessing to to everyone. I lift all this up in Jesus’ name.
No is such a difficult thing to say…at least for people like me who are people pleasers. To me saying no meant I was letting people down, I was being selfish, I was being mean and I was being unhelpful.
I’ve had a lot of time to think about work, and learn about my weaknesses and how I can improve my performance at work. It’s not necessarily a new epiphany, but it has actually hit home that I have to stop saying yes to everyone asking me to do something for them. I have to choose the situations where I say yes. Steve Jobs said it best when he said that “It’s only by saying no that you can concentrate on things that are more important.”
For a while, I lost sight of what I should have thought was important to me. In my deep desire to be helpful to everyone, I allowed myself to take on too much. I stopped taking care of me because I was too busy trying to be everything to everyone. But the universe does look after you. I realised, in the nick of time, that this was a habit that I had to stop. I had to concentrate on me, what I thought was important. I realised that if I took care of myself, and what I needed to do first, I would be in a better position to help others.
I also learned that saying no can also be a wonderful teaching mechanism, especially at work. I find it hard to refuse anyone who asks for help, especially in circumstances where I know I can. I’ve learned, though, that sometimes, it’s not always up to you to help. Sometimes you have to step aside so that you allow people to do their job. Sometimes, even if it takes longer to teach people than to do the job yourself, it is still best to teach them how to do the task instead of taking the task away from them. If you take the task away, you take away the learning opportunity.
It still pains me to say no. But I’m working on putting myself first. I wasn’t raised to think that it was okay to take care of Number One first – Number One being myself. But now I’m beginning to realise that there is wisdom in putting oneself first.
Saying no is good. It gives you the opportunity to say yes to something even better.
So tomorrow is another Monday, one that is likely to be manic. I know I should make sure I look forward to things, and I am. Honestly. But I am also being realistic.
I am (very truly) thankful for each morning. I am thankful for each workday because I can meet my step goal for the day. I have a few things already on my to-do list but that’s okay. Every morning is new and filled with exciting possibilities!
At work, on Fridays, we have an unspoken rule that when we leave the office at the end of the day, we leave our desk as bare as possible so that the cleaners can dust our desks. I try to make sure most of my desk is clear so that they can spray Pledge and dust when they do our area. Not that they actually dust. But I live in hope. One day, I shall come to work and my desk will have the lingering smell Pledge and I will plonk myself on my office chair and smile.
So this weekend will be my birthday…my 40th birthday. Looking at my desk today, I think making sure I adhere to the Clean Desk Friday policy will be a bit of a challenge and will require an extra 15 minutes of clearing up!
After weeks of inwardly wincing every time I took my mug out of the ground floor kitchen dishwasher (where all pretty cups go to crumble) and heaving sighs of relief, the worst has happened. My cup has got a chip.
I mostly wash my cup before I leave the office. I make sure it’s clean so I don’t have to put my dishwasher. I’ve seen so many cups and coffee mugs get chipped in that monstrous thing. The one time I needed to rush out of the office to catch a train, I forget to wash my cup. A well-meaning soul put my lovely cup in the office monster and when I came back to work yesterday, I found my cup stuffed in the back of the cupboard with a humdinger of a chip!
I can’t help but mourn my beautiful mug. It was the perfect shape to cup so that I could warm my frozen hands when the office was cold. It carried just enough coffee or tea for me not to feel shortchanged when I drained the last drops of my drink. It kept the drink warm (miraculously) but you didn’t burn your lips when you sipped from it whilst the drink was still piping hot (I still marvel at the seemingly miraculous insulation!). I don’t think Starbucks make that mug anymore…at least I can’t find it a Starbucks near me anyway.
After the appropriate grieving period, I’m going to have to find my next perfect cup.