I have been ill for a week now. I’ve had a massively bad migraine attack and I stayed home properly from work on Thursday. The migraine happened on Sunday (although I felt what was probably the beginnings of it on Saturday evening) and I was suffering through a very painful head for most of the week. It didn’t help that I forced myself to do a full day at work on the Monday. I did the smart thing on Tuesday and stayed home and went to the doctor’s surgery. They prescribed migraine meds (thankfully!) and signed me off for a week. What I did next was worthy of a face-slap though. I went back to work. Obviously, I wasn’t allowed to stay because I was signed off and declared not fit to work. For insurance purposes, my company isn’t allowed to have me in the premises. I went home with the intention of going to my doctor again and getting myself signed in.
I have, however, stayed home. Despite the hiccup of Thursday when I sent an email to a client asking them to do something that was a requirement. I call it a hiccup because I should have, really, laid off work. Properly. I did on Friday though. I haven’t checked my emails since I looked on Thursday morning.
I went to the eye doctor yesterday to get my eyes checked (I was due a check up anyway) and found out that because of my diabetes there is a bleed in my left eye and the doctor has found the beginnings of cloudiness in the lens of my right eye – which in short is the beginnings of cataract. It’s because I have had amazingly high blood sugar in the past few months.
So I’ve been thinking. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking. I’ve got to make a lot of changes. In my diet, my lifestyle, my life, my environment and in the way I work. I’ve got to make changes because my future depends on it.
And the good thing about this is that the inertia I’ve allowed myself to be surrounded by is suddenly not there because I have had a huge wake up call. If I want my life to get better, I’ve got to make changes.