Sunday is usually family Sunday Skype Day. I chat to my folks and they chat back by video chat. We haven’t been able to do that properly for a couple of Sundays now. My dad is still in hospital but he is improving. His catheter and IV has been removed. He’s now in rehab for the stroke that he suffered to strengthen his left side. Instead of a video chat, I phoned my mum and said a quick hello to my Abba on the phone. There is something that I can’t put a finger on, something that worries me. But I can’t seem to articulate it, I can’t seem to describe it. This I lay down at my God’s feet. This I lift up to Him to take care of. I also lift up my worrying heart and ask Him to allay my fears and to calm my worrying heart.
Instead of spending the time chatting to my family, I have read several devotionals instead. The verse below has hit home and has helped me deal with my situation.
“But His joy is in those who reverence Him, those who expect Him to be loving and kind” (Psalm 147:11).
It always amazes me how much God loves us. And I mean REALLY loves us. We have free will and He doesn’t stop us from doing our own thing. But when things go wrong, He makes it possible for us to find our way back to Him. He loves it when His children go out and be independent, but He loves it even more when we are completely dependent on Him. He would rather we completely depend on Him. And that suits me just fine. It’s easy to say “Keep the faith” or “Just trust God” but because we are human, we have human frailties and we are, by nature, driven to be independent and our self-preservation instinct automatically kicks in and we find it difficult to depend on anyone or anything else for safety. But going it alone brings a shedload of stress and heartache! I am so blessed and eternally grateful that my God is there for me, that I can completely depend on Him and I can leave my cares at His feet and I can trust that He will make everything better. The reassurance that God wouldn’t have it any other way just stills my worrying heart.
Yellywelly 