Yelly Writes

Last day of the year

I saw this quote on Goodreads a few days ago and copied it down into my notes.  It was a good thing to have floating about because it made me think about impending arrival of the New Year and what I wanted that to mean to me:

“What would you like to have happen in your life this year?  What would you like to do, to accomplish?  What good would you like to attract into your life?  What particular areas of growth would you like to have happen to you?  What blocks, or character defects, would you like to have removed?…The new year stands before us, like a chapter in a book, waiting to be written.  We can help write that story by setting goals.” ― Melody Beattie,  The Language of Letting Go

It’s this existentialist-esque questions that make you stop and think and indulge in well-needed retrospective introspection.  I may be twisting arm chair psychology, but this, I guess, is my reaction to my passive-aggressive over-developed sense of responsibility and hyperactive conscience!  In a few hours another year will have come and gone.  Another year will shortly begin its run.

While I don’t necessarily do New Year resolutions (anymore, as my steely New Year resolve will probably just last 3 weeks tops), I have goals this year: to strive to be kinder to others and to myself; to listen more to others and learn to use my self-edit button so I don’t speak before thinking; to make sure that my response to everything is borne out of love, patience and kindness; to make sure that no matter what, I follow the Golden Rule; to make sure I take care of my body, my heart and my spirit, and to make sure that whatever I do is guided by my faith. 2016 has been difficult and there were hard lessons that I had to learn and hard truths I had to face about myself. But because God is faithful, I am blessed with the opportunity to learn from my mistakes and to work at being a better version of me! I am God’s project, His work in progress!

Here’s to the New Year everyone! 🙂

Berlin Wall Fragment

Yelly Writes

A look back on 2014

For the last few weeks, I’ve been saying that I can’t wait for 2014 to end because it has been the worst year.  I take that all back.

While it has been a difficult year, after looking back, it has been a year filled with amazing things: I went home to Manila twice; with my Abba’s amazing recovery, I have seen what I believe is a miracle; I am so very thankful for the support of family and friends (especially the friends I have made here), because your faith, optimism and positivity (and the occasional “it’s okay to go and cry”) has buoyed us and carried us through the difficult months; and I even managed to get myself on TV (for a total of 2 nanoseconds!)!

I am thankful for all the lessons I learned in 2014.  Because while it has been challenging, I learned a lot about myself, my faith has grown, my Abba is much, much better, my family is stronger together and we know that we truly love each other and I have learned that I am made of sterner stuff after all.  I know that I am truly, truly blessed.

I can’t wait to find out what 2015 will bring! 🙂

Happy New Year everyone!  May you all be so very, very blessed! 🙂

P.S.  Here’s a quick-fire list of my blogging goals for 2014: blog more, bake more so I can blog more, cook more so I can blog more, take more photos and post them on the blog…yes, the goal is to blog more!!!

Yelly Writes

Nearly over the threshold

The year is nearly over…my laptop clock reads 23:16.   I’m not really feeling super but I’m so staying up and watching the fireworks from London.  If I lived near Southbank…heck, if I lived in London, I’d be soooooo there, braving the crush of the crowds (and I have a slight phobia of crowds, so me braving any sort of crowd is a huge thing!), the cold and quite possibly the rain!

Most people spend the day contemplating the events of the year, what they’ve done, what they haven’t, what the wanted to do.  I’ve spent most of the year wanting to shout out “Stop the world, I want to get off!”  My year has been excessively busy with a shedload of events and lots of traveling from one end of the UK to the other.  A lot of people will be looking back at their year with regret because there are things they would have wanted to not do and I did sit and think about my 2012.  I looked at everything that’s happened and I asked myself whether if I regretted anything.  I’m glad that I am able to say that  I do not have any regrets.  Not a one.  Well, maybe just the one:  not being able to go home.  That’s the biggest regret really of the past 3 years.  I haven’t been able to go home.  Apart from that, I really wouldn’t want to change anything.  Because I think I came into my own in 2012.  I’ve learned a lot about who I am, what I can do, what I can take, how far I’ll go to achieve things, what I’m willing to sacrifice.

I can look at the mirror and smile at myself again.  Really smile at myself.  Because I know who I am now, I know exactly what I’m worth and I know I won’t settle and I won’t allow myself to be underappreciated.

2012 has flown by, with its share of joys and heartaches, with its bouts of being too busy to think and days when homesickness was heart-rending.  But I’m glad for the quick passage of time.  I often found myself marvelling at how quickly the year was passing by.  But in a way, I was also grateful for it.  Not being able to think for being busy can be quite the blessing.

So at 23:50, I will end this entry with a poem by Joanna Fuchs.  The next entry will be tomorrow, in 2013!

I’m writing this in a state of shock,
Watching the clock—tick tock, tick tock,
Advancing, approaching, relentlessly,
A brand new year; Oh, can it be?The calendar says the same thing, too;
Time races, vanishes for me; Boo hoo!
No, wait! If time flies, I’m having fun!
A year of fun! It’s gone! It’s done!I now embrace the blur of time,
Because it simply means that I’m
Too busy with pleasure, joy, delight
To mourn the passing days’ swift flight.So I’m wishing you fast, happy days,
Pleasuring you in myriad ways,
Filled with happiness and cheer,
Oh Happy, Happy Bright New Year!